My heart just died

My heart just died
I don't feel special
I don't feel anything
If anyone can just make you blush
I don't know why I thought
That I could only do that
I was just really insipid
Now I feel nothing inside me
Except the tears I hold back
The pain rushing through me
It feels as venom's in my vein
My smile has not become faded
My life just got sucked away
Maybe I should let you go
Go be with someone your age
Also in your own location
I should stop trying so hard
Me falling is now at full caution
It's obvious others want you
I'm just holding you back
So I'm going to live through this
Just this for now till I die